Gertrude: One of my favorite visitors to the Liza Jolie Garden every morning. I can recognize Gertie because of the missing piece of her left ear – very distinctive. She’s gotten pretty comfortable with me and doesn’t seem at all dismayed when I speak to her. She brightens my day each time I see her.
Yesterday was a day washed in a sweet and gentle sadness for me. I was missing my precious Liza Jolie on the second anniversary of her passing. Unexpectedly, yesterday also was a day of pleasant surprise.
I have been doing my outdoor sitting for several years now. Almost every morning over those years, I have observed a woman running by as I sit. She has lovely energy, and I have always felt intuitively that she would be a friend. Because I am engaged in a mindfulness practice, however, we both honor the silence and don’t say a word. Sometimes we make eye contact and smile.
Yesterday when I opened my mailbox, I found the following note on bright blue paper: “Greetings. I’m the runner. I would love to meet you. My name is Hyla. [telephone number, email address, street address – it turns out she lives very close to me.] I so enjoy seeing you in morning meditation.”
Even in those days colored by sadness, there also is joy to be found.
May 18th will always bare a hint of sadness for me. Two years ago today, I lost my precious Liza Jolie.
Lizie, Sweet Princess, you were a wondrous light, an extraordinary gift, in my life. You were a remarkable teacher, and I thank you for the wisdom you so generously shared. You brought an abundance of love, joy, and laughter into our house. You were our protector, our alpha, the leader of our pack. I will love and miss you always Dear Girl; I will love and miss you always.
And for forever I will love and miss the other wonderful fur babies who blessed my life in years gone by: Doodles, Waggy I, Whimpy, Crockett, Krinkle, Waggy II, Twigley, Ariel, Gulliver, Willoughby, Squeakie, and the different Hammies. You all enriched my life in so many ways. Lizie, you are in excellent company. I know that my other fur babies are loving and watching out for you and one another. I know that you are loving and watching out for them.
Zydeco and Rezi, as I hope you know, I love, and will always love, you both. Thank you for the love and joy you bring into my life.
Today, I am grieving – a grief that will never go away entirely – evidence of the depth of my love. I also am filled with wholehearted gratitude.